Every Word Was a Piece of My Heart
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Every Word Was a Piece of My Heart - IN MEMORIAM Pipiholic [210610-00.11]
just like bon jovi song's i wrote this line, im in such relationship, fake relationship, that i had made it myself..
and now i just can cry to feel sorry for i cant leave him, for i cant stop love him, for i cant live without him..
somehow i knew that he doesnt love me, ya its all my fault coz im the one that have the love,
im the one that asking him to pretend, im the one that adoring him with my everythings.. i do love him.. but he dont..
everything's change, for i cant give anything anymore, for i cant help him anymore, for i cant be what he want me to be anymore..
i am nothing for him, i am invisible for him, and i am no one for him..
my every word was a piece of my heart, even he dont believe it, i keep told him, i keep my patience for him,
until all my friends judging me that i am stupid enough doing all this shit-useless things,
for they know that he dont had it in reply, for they know that he treat me bad
and for they know that everytime i keep crying in the nite but keep praying for him in every way..
i dont understand either, why am i keep praying for him, if i knew that he keep making me cry and hurt knowing all of this ???
i just dont know, why they told me that im stupid, for i know that he is the one that should be called as stupid,
since he ignoring such love as mine, since he dont know how to be thankfull for what he got, since he treat such sacrifices [as mine]..
still, i realize that im stupid enough for taking all this risk, for i know that i cant love the others anymore, not even my masamune..
i let myself.. i made myself..
and now i just can cry to feel sorry for i cant leave him, for i cant stop love him, for i cant live without him..
somehow i knew that he doesnt love me, ya its all my fault coz im the one that have the love,
im the one that asking him to pretend, im the one that adoring him with my everythings.. i do love him.. but he dont..
everything's change, for i cant give anything anymore, for i cant help him anymore, for i cant be what he want me to be anymore..
i am nothing for him, i am invisible for him, and i am no one for him..
my every word was a piece of my heart, even he dont believe it, i keep told him, i keep my patience for him,
until all my friends judging me that i am stupid enough doing all this shit-useless things,
for they know that he dont had it in reply, for they know that he treat me bad
and for they know that everytime i keep crying in the nite but keep praying for him in every way..
i dont understand either, why am i keep praying for him, if i knew that he keep making me cry and hurt knowing all of this ???
i just dont know, why they told me that im stupid, for i know that he is the one that should be called as stupid,
since he ignoring such love as mine, since he dont know how to be thankfull for what he got, since he treat such sacrifices [as mine]..
still, i realize that im stupid enough for taking all this risk, for i know that i cant love the others anymore, not even my masamune..
i let myself.. i made myself..
[in memoriam of bee]
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